It's May, horrible timing. I finally got a set computer usage though! at the community college and it's great cause now all I need is an Id from the school for backup and stuff, cause i never got one, and i'll be set!
as for my life, it's been pretty awesome.
i realized yesterday that I'm over everyone and on with my life.
I haven’t gone to church in two weeks and I don’t feel bad. I feel like right now God’s leading me into a path of righteousness because of how I’ve been reacting to situations like with Alejandra and the ipod. Yeah, Adam got it stolen from him, but Mr. Jones gave me a new one because of the perfect scroe on the CAHSEE. Jose, Andres, and Kevin are trying to get theirs. Ms. Adams offered to speak up about it as well. It’s not right for the school to have only bought two…well they gave Andres a shuffle, but he was like what is this?! Which was pretty hilarious when you think about it, we were originally promised shuffles. Me and Angel got nanos cause we asked Ms Cobb a while back and she told us to see Jones. Jones just handed them to us on a Tuesday morning without even asking our names. I’ve probably said that too much, but hey, everyone’s gotta know!! Hahah!
We are currently working on recooperating the ipod to it’s greatness. I’m listenting to it right now and once I get to a decent itunes program I’ll edit out songs, put album covers and stuff. I might take out the klondike game. I just made the connection between the game and the bar. Hahah..
Next year I will be taking philosophy finally! And AP: english, Art History, and Calculus. It’ll be a good change. I won’t feel like I’m wasting my time doing stupid poetry, learning about friggin Hitler, and well..I’ve always been ahead at Math and I don’t feel bad about being with Ms Horne.
Karen's still the same, surprising huh?
I doubt she’ll ever change. I’ve got like a project for every single class. The take home test and makeup work for english, summary of six-week plan with Rice, powerpoint presentation for Clark due Tuesday, barbados thing for Christie, The martinique thing for Ikeme, and the take home test for Horne, which should be real easy. I’m not too concerned with anything though. I’ve had time for everything so far.
Maybe we’ll turn it all around cause it’s not too late, it’s never too late…!!! Three Days Grace. GREAT song.
The sucky part about yesterday was that I think I just realized music was only special cause I shared it with Adam. Right now I am trying to get down to the bottom of this problem. I give myself the shivers when I try to love music or when music just gets to me. Right now I feel neutral, has he ever felt like this? Music was keeping me sick in the head, but the weeklong break cured me. Yeah, now it’s on to learn about real love. We’re just going to have to sit and wait.
Francisco is going to download a few songs for me, and I’ve still got to make a pitstop at Anthony’s house for the final batch of songs. Hahh. Angel gave me the metal, Chris…the catchy songs, and Anthony..the personal songs like from Jack’s mannequin and from church. A lot to do and yet I’m not stressed. I need to go buy Redbull for p.e on Tuesday, a mile in eight minutes? The fastest I’ve ever done it was like 8:54 or something and that was back at Davis. I just hope I don’t crash right in the middle of the mile. That would be hilarious though!
God Bless. [:
30.5.09
14.2.09
valentines day
was interesting ..
went to santa monica pier and later i'm gonna go to the movie night at church. we bought a cake for my mom at baskins robins. i guess it's a great day, but i'm sooo sore! badminton yesterday was fierce. we actually stayed active for an hour and half. it rained hard after school and i got drenched. i changed into my p.e clothes and then went to the gym for practice. i liked it. i think i'm pretty good. oh god...i love this song! acoustic decode is better than the original. maybe. haven't listened to it a while.
adam has my ipod. for the past four days i haven't hit anyone...and omg. ricardo is not going to live up to his end of the bet but i still don't want to lose. umm. i think adam hates me. like serious hate. the way he looked at me...it was kind of heartbreaking. i watched the episode of degrassi when that one guy gets killed by his own gun..it was a repeat, but it led to me wanting to know how i would react if adam got shot....totally different situation, but it still made me cry. i'd be.. yeah.....
dude it would suck ass.
as for my plans...stick with debate. stick with mesa. stick with badminton. finish my paintings. lose ten pounds. get a permit. not fail any classes! bring someone to cell!!! i gave elizabeth from french and p.e a bible so hopefully she gets something from it. i think i'm gonna ask her to come to cell with us next friday. stephany's having problems with her mom, but she won't let me in...i doubt she knows what she's doing or what's going on. it sucks, but she just wants to stay in that mentality.
angel asked ms scott if there was mesa saturday and she said, no. take your girlfriend out! yeah...it was just that awkward. it was just me and her and him in the room...mostly cause he procrastinates...i think..or just has to take his time on everything. we couldn't even laugh..it was just so uncomfortable. and well that made up my mind about him. well...hope everyone has a good weekend [:
God Bless. [:
went to santa monica pier and later i'm gonna go to the movie night at church. we bought a cake for my mom at baskins robins. i guess it's a great day, but i'm sooo sore! badminton yesterday was fierce. we actually stayed active for an hour and half. it rained hard after school and i got drenched. i changed into my p.e clothes and then went to the gym for practice. i liked it. i think i'm pretty good. oh god...i love this song! acoustic decode is better than the original. maybe. haven't listened to it a while.
adam has my ipod. for the past four days i haven't hit anyone...and omg. ricardo is not going to live up to his end of the bet but i still don't want to lose. umm. i think adam hates me. like serious hate. the way he looked at me...it was kind of heartbreaking. i watched the episode of degrassi when that one guy gets killed by his own gun..it was a repeat, but it led to me wanting to know how i would react if adam got shot....totally different situation, but it still made me cry. i'd be.. yeah.....
dude it would suck ass.
as for my plans...stick with debate. stick with mesa. stick with badminton. finish my paintings. lose ten pounds. get a permit. not fail any classes! bring someone to cell!!! i gave elizabeth from french and p.e a bible so hopefully she gets something from it. i think i'm gonna ask her to come to cell with us next friday. stephany's having problems with her mom, but she won't let me in...i doubt she knows what she's doing or what's going on. it sucks, but she just wants to stay in that mentality.
angel asked ms scott if there was mesa saturday and she said, no. take your girlfriend out! yeah...it was just that awkward. it was just me and her and him in the room...mostly cause he procrastinates...i think..or just has to take his time on everything. we couldn't even laugh..it was just so uncomfortable. and well that made up my mind about him. well...hope everyone has a good weekend [:
God Bless. [:
7.2.09
the truth is shining in your eyes
decode - paramore
yesterday, cell, was amazing.
they split us up into girls and guys. we went in the room in the back and the lady pastor talked to us. it was really long. i didn't like it, but manuel told me before we seperated that i had to believe something would change in me, and i did. and it did. she talked for like two hours and it was okay at first, then it got annoying. yeah, it did. she'd yell and then try to make us laugh...they did, but i didn't. i felt really patronized. i can't remember what she said that really got me looking away trying to hold back tears. and then i'm glad she told us to stand and pray.
we all made pacts of purity to God. we gave our hearts to him. and i felt freed. i admitted that i wanted to have the innocence i had with alex back. i don't know how it died, or if i even have it still, but last night it was what i wanted. and i just wanted to fall to the floor crying, but i guess my pride kept me up.
it was all really spiritual. there were like forty girls praying and crying. i cried because of them after i finished because of me. there was just so much hurt in the room. and God made it happen. and it was beautiful.
ingrid and toffe didn't want to talk about it with manuel, but i don't know why we can't talk about it!! grrr!!
hahh. today went to mesa and hung out with anthony and efren. went to the library and bought some cheesecake across the street. i read the hungry hungry catterpillar!! omg. dude, that book is like....awesome! hahah! i love it [: and that's pretty much it ...except for when i got home and worked out...i feel all good inside [:
God Bless!
yesterday, cell, was amazing.
they split us up into girls and guys. we went in the room in the back and the lady pastor talked to us. it was really long. i didn't like it, but manuel told me before we seperated that i had to believe something would change in me, and i did. and it did. she talked for like two hours and it was okay at first, then it got annoying. yeah, it did. she'd yell and then try to make us laugh...they did, but i didn't. i felt really patronized. i can't remember what she said that really got me looking away trying to hold back tears. and then i'm glad she told us to stand and pray.
we all made pacts of purity to God. we gave our hearts to him. and i felt freed. i admitted that i wanted to have the innocence i had with alex back. i don't know how it died, or if i even have it still, but last night it was what i wanted. and i just wanted to fall to the floor crying, but i guess my pride kept me up.
it was all really spiritual. there were like forty girls praying and crying. i cried because of them after i finished because of me. there was just so much hurt in the room. and God made it happen. and it was beautiful.
ingrid and toffe didn't want to talk about it with manuel, but i don't know why we can't talk about it!! grrr!!
hahh. today went to mesa and hung out with anthony and efren. went to the library and bought some cheesecake across the street. i read the hungry hungry catterpillar!! omg. dude, that book is like....awesome! hahah! i love it [: and that's pretty much it ...except for when i got home and worked out...i feel all good inside [:
God Bless!
1.2.09
what kind of world do you want?
world - five for fighting
I'm gonna try to do that anthem scholarship thing for fastweb. I need to go to the library to check it out though. but it'll be pretty simple i think...and hope.
this weekend was pretty bland. today we were all too tense to have any fun. yeah it sucked. but yesterday i drove [:
it was pretty cool. i learned u-turns. i think i just need to learn how to steady it after i do a turn, like returning the wheel back to the start position, but other than that, i think i'm set. i really want to get all those songs on my ipod already. adam's the only one who'll download them though. angel's gonna ut riot and sparks, and some other song by atreyu.
lmfao! omg she called him a fat poop...i think. i forgot! damn it!! then she slapped him...umm it's this movie channel five. i'll probably watch it...i can't wait for tomorrow though...yay people! hahh..
God Bless! [:
I'm gonna try to do that anthem scholarship thing for fastweb. I need to go to the library to check it out though. but it'll be pretty simple i think...and hope.
this weekend was pretty bland. today we were all too tense to have any fun. yeah it sucked. but yesterday i drove [:
it was pretty cool. i learned u-turns. i think i just need to learn how to steady it after i do a turn, like returning the wheel back to the start position, but other than that, i think i'm set. i really want to get all those songs on my ipod already. adam's the only one who'll download them though. angel's gonna ut riot and sparks, and some other song by atreyu.
lmfao! omg she called him a fat poop...i think. i forgot! damn it!! then she slapped him...umm it's this movie channel five. i'll probably watch it...i can't wait for tomorrow though...yay people! hahh..
God Bless! [:
31.1.09
in a lion[always winter]
relient k
i felt kinda bad for not going to cell. there wasn't any mesa either. and i didn't go to school friday. but i drove the car today. i don't know what's up with my dad. i think i did really good, but he didn't seem all excited like i was. he says he'll buy me a car, inexpensive and stuff. he's going to pay for my lessons, cause he thinks i need them. i don't think i need them. i want to go drive right now man....
well that's basically it ...not much to update on.
umm...nope. nothing.
God Bless [:
i felt kinda bad for not going to cell. there wasn't any mesa either. and i didn't go to school friday. but i drove the car today. i don't know what's up with my dad. i think i did really good, but he didn't seem all excited like i was. he says he'll buy me a car, inexpensive and stuff. he's going to pay for my lessons, cause he thinks i need them. i don't think i need them. i want to go drive right now man....
well that's basically it ...not much to update on.
umm...nope. nothing.
God Bless [:
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